burning devil

Saya sangat suka tulis diari...

itu adalah cara saya meluahkan perasaan....

akhirnya diari yang bertajuk devil may cry....

iaitu  diambil sempena nama game dan ada reason tertentu kenapa diberi nama sebegitu.....di bakar....

kenapa devil may cry...

sebab devil=diambil sempena nama evil...evil=jahat,devil=penjahat...penjahat itu saya

may cry=refer to the devil want to go back to fitrah.....she always want to be better....repent

but the word may itu menunjukkan uncertainty dalam kehidupan dia.....

she always the devil....

sometimes she do evil thing even she doesn't want to do it...

and then she cry.....

even though no cry been shown....

but deep inside her heart.....

you know...there's so much pain she had to bear for....

she just the one that is born with such abnormalities....

sometimes, she wonder is it true ther's always light at the end of the road....

because she always keep repeating the same mistake...

she's not only got a mental illness...her heart also not feeling well......

she's merely dying...........

because she was so evil....no one will remember her.....since she was kid untill now...

but she always know that she have Allah.....and she always know that Allah is forgiven......

HE always reemember her....

Eventhough she doesn't have anyone in this world....she keep in her heart....

Ya Allah hatiku ini selalu lalai....keseluruhannya aku sungguh lalai....tentukan la apa yang terbaik untuk ku....

apabila dia buka surat yang ayah dia tulis dia tersenyum....walaupun perkataan2 simple je di atas kepingan kotak...

apabila dia terpandang kotak dengan perkataan wani gilark...dia tersenyum...

namun hari nie....bila dia membuka diary devil may cry.....

dier berasa gembira....dan...sedih

"maaf......sampai sini sahaja aku dapat menulis di dalammu, buku......kau menimbulkan curiosity kepada orang sekeliling....bersemadi lah dikau di dalam api....."


God always listen to us...eventhough no one will care about us or even we really want to care about the people that do not want our care.........so stick to what you are....

Gwenchana........