My person

i’ve been watching grey’s anatomy for ninth season now

and of course, I couldn’t lie to myself the story is interesting season by season…

I started to watch it since I was in form four..

Yep, it did make me want to be a doctor….  

     

But I do not smart enough to be the one….

From the one that want to be a doctor, finally the story has leaded me to be interest with the relationship happen between cristina and Meredith……

Everytime I heard both cristina and mer saying this word...

          “u’re my person”

I wonder did I ever have one……

My person…

Is not someone that comes with my condition…

Someone that never makes me wants to change her…

He/she can be whatever…

As long as the things do not make them destruct…

I think that’s alright….

Accepting each other’s flaws….

Influence by who they use to be…

Yeah…my person can be anybody….

For now …I think….i don’t have one…..

And I don’t ever have one

If I need to talk with someone bout problems

I just telling anyone about it

And surely that’s not okay for me

Open up about myself to anyone…

That’s never make me want to be the one that I use to be..

Or at least the one that I want to be

Which means later on…I end up with confidence deficit….

Fortunately I got Allah to talk to….

I’ve talking with HIM for long enough….

Alhamdulillah until now…

23 years…insyaallah……

Talk about all the unbearable things…

Asking HIM to make things bearable for me……

And guide me along the way in my life………

HE’s always be my person…

Read More

printer waktu panas dan berat

aku ada test esok...

printer aku nazak duk kat tepi katil aku....

heart rate dia.....oh dah 30 beat kebawah....

dah tak lama nampaknya.......

aku usap badannya.........

mungkin ini kali terakhir aku puji dia......

kau bagus suatu ketika dahulu......

tet....tet...tettttttttttttttttttttttttt..........

sampai sudah masanya.........

kau pergi meninggalkan aku jua......

aku cuma perlu kau bertahan sedikit masa lagi.....

nampaknya dirimu......sudah tidak tertahan lagi......

kau pergi jua......

pixmo......

esok aku ada test haba dan berat....

ingatkah dikau suatu ketika dahulu....

berpanas kita dek kerna haba si mentari.....

berberat2 kita kerna kotakmu yang berat.....

namun semuanya kita gagahi....aku maksudkan aku gagahi.....

demi niat kita yang suci.....

mengprint nota dan dokumen yg pasti....

aku seolah lupa jasamu kini......

maaf....

dan 

selamat tinggal............

aku pasti maut akan menjemputku suatu ketika nanti....

terima kasih untuk segalanya

khidmatmu berhenti di sini

Read More

language

Hari nie....aku tengok gwiyomi kat utube...

and aku end up comment....sillly....

i just try to be myself..

ya la...if i'm going to say they're cute

it turns out to be some pleasantries...

no sincere...

i'm not a gay

 liking those stupid...hideous thing.....

sorry to say....i'm really sorry for those who like this gwiyomi thingy...

and i think i'm not going to watch it again..that's it...

ya...

aku suka learn bahasa...

setiap hari aku akn hafal bhasa....

walaupun later on.....

i'll only learn how to pronounce...

not knowing what they're writing about...

i'm feel at ease about that

kan.

i never give up to learn language

btw.....gwiyomi thingy is a part of language

ya...body language...maybe

suck it up dude.....

if u like it just watch it over n over again

if it's turn out u hate it...

be like me....

kutuk sikit...n stop watching dat video

Read More

banyak dan gila

Banyak gila benda nak kena solve….

Aku rasa banyak gila….

Mungkin boleh mati….

Ada kat otak…..

Tapi x terzahir…….

        1.Tujuan…………………..

        2. visi….

        3. matlamat………………

Kawan aku kata….

Nak jadi blogger….

Cantik…kaya…pandai…..

Baru la blogger…..

Hahahaaaaa…..kita bkn blogger srius……………

Read More

Abah

I’m 23 this year and abah is 63 this year

We’re not talking that much nowadays…

Me…at home just a quiet girl….

Like a ghost…

And my abah really miss me…

He misses the way we use to be

Talking…laughing….eating together…sharing problem….

I know….

That’s why he keep scolding me….

Sometimes for nothing….

He keeps gaining my attention by scolding me…

But i…let my mouth shut and ignore what he doing…..

Some other time…I was really hurtful by what he did…

He scold me because others wrong doing

Maybe he doesn’t know it wasn’t my fault…

………………………………………………………………………..

There’s one time when I was in mecca…

He scolds me again…..and I stand up for myself….

I ask him…

“What makes you piss off right now?”

He answer

“I was very sick wani…abah ada sakit jantung and it is automatic response”

Which then I reply

“wani pun sama!!!ok abah boleh buat apa yg abh nak….. I don’t care….do as long as you feel satisfied about it….”

Later on….i sees his saddened face……..

And seem like the situation never get better….

Until now

Read More